Photo by Ivan Samkov on Pexels.com Sitting in my therapy session on Tuesday night it was evident that I have no desire to ever be in a relationship ever again. I said it because it is how I feel. My life is so crazy that trying to date, or attempt dating in my current situation… Continue reading I don’t ever want to fall in Love
"Elsa Dutton" from 1883 I have been watching a new show on Paramount Plus called 1883. This story is the story of how the Dutton Family began from Yellowstone. The whole series is so beautiful and fantastic. I recommend you watch both shows. The reason why I am writing this is particular post because I… Continue reading Redefining Love. New Eyes
Let's remember It is the end of January and we have survived the start of "cupping" season. If you are not aware of that term means, please allow me to explain. When you are trying to find a love match during the holidays so your family doesn't think you are going to end up alone… Continue reading Countdown to Valentines Day
When does this feeling change? How does one start to feel worthy? Worthy of their lives, worthy of their family, friends, and worthy of finding love? I’ve seen too many times where I beat myself up in so many ways. The goal has been to stop beating myself up over and over again for things… Continue reading Wanting to feel worthy
Understanding how it began This year will be a year of reflection and real heart realizations that must happen. I often wonder where, how, and why my heartbreak began. It took some time, but it truly goes back to my parents. Please understand I am not blaming them for a crappy childhood, but I put… Continue reading Original Heartbreak
I look at my life and often wonder do I really know what love is? What real love is? I know we often talk about that, "Can't eat, can't sleep, world series" kind of feeling that was described in a movie once, but when you watch movies, read books, and see other couples around you… Continue reading Looking for Love…What is it?
Just be there Sitting here in the airport waiting to board to go home I have little daydreaming moments that someone I want will be at the airport to pick me up and he will be happy to see me, but then again reality sets in. Not a priority behind is everyday life, even though… Continue reading Why….why?
My dream life I have been thinking instead of being so hurt and angry with love, and not having love in my life. Maybe it’s time to move past all of that and to look past Loves issues. Apparently it really isn’t me, it’s Loves issues and he fails to even accept or acknowledge anything… Continue reading Looking Past Loves Faults
Me demanding? Uh…. I had a conversation with my cousin last night and she has informed me that I am too demanding. I expect too much from a guy because deep down inside myself I demand too much from myself as a woman, especially an educated woman. I am wondering why that is? She said… Continue reading Being too Much is Bad
Pick the right person When life becomes a struggle don’t you wish you had someone to share it with? I know I do. When I feel like I can’t write one more paper, take one more test, do one last presentation I need that person to tell me to, “Get up and get it done.… Continue reading Struggling in Love..Share your Pain with Me.