When you are single what is the one thing you miss? Is it knowing you have someone around, is it the adorable ways you two communicate, or is it all just about the intimacy of everything that comes with being a relationship with someone.
If you have been following this blog, you understand that I have my moments of when I want to be in a relationship, and when I don’t want to be around another human being. I think if we stopped for a moment and really saw deep inside ourselves we will think the same way. I just actually say it.
I am used to being alone. I’m used to not being invited to things, places, or just overall life. I think it is because I work two jobs and I’m in school full time everyone knows that I am super busy and super tired, but little do they realize that I will always make time for anyone who wants to include me. I know I am super busy right now, and yes I am trying to finish my degree and manage two jobs, but I am always often ignored.
This all works out for me in some way. I have to take time for myself, I have to be able to breathe, sleep, eat, and relax after anyone of my super long days. I usually am doing homework or bing watching some show that I love and will never get tired of (Gilmore Girls, Once Upon a Time, Downton Abby), we all have our own guilty pleasures.
I think anymore with the fact that I am facing a new health situation, my activity level for anything has gone out the window. It’s pretty sad too, but I guess it happens to the best of us. Other than that I’ve been taking stock of a lot of things in my life and I don’t miss being in any kind of relationship, but what I do miss is having a friend I can go to, to lean on when I need someone, just a hand to hold, a pair of arms that will wrap themselves around me letting me know that everything will be okay, that I will be okay, and that he will be there for me through everything. At this point in my life, that is something I wish I had versus anything else.
No matter what some people think I know I can stay just friends with a guy, as long as we are on the same page, same understanding that this is all we are. If it changes then we need to figure things out. Am I struggling with things? Yes, but I know my health is part of the problem. I am focused on making sure things work out in a positive way, but in reality I am also very realistic about what could possibly happen in my life that may cause issues for others.
Honestly when you think about it, if you are single what is the one thing you are missing? If you instantly say sex, then you can go out and look online for someone quicker than you think, but if you are like me, you are probably going to need something a little bit more. Find out what that is and look for it.
Maybe one day I’ll find that kind of friend who will be there for me like that.