Being too Much is Bad

I had a conversation with my cousin last night and she has informed me that I am too demanding. I expect too much from a guy because deep down inside myself I demand too much from myself as a woman, especially an educated woman.

I am wondering why that is? She said that I explain myself too much as to why I am demanding, and I TELL someone what to do, how to do it, and what I expect. I had to shut my mouth because honestly that isn’t me….to a point.

I do find myself explaining things about myself and why I am the way I am, but I also feel like I need to tell someone about myself so they can know what to expect from me and how to take care of me. It’s just easier to get it all out of the way.

I know I’m demanding, but in reality I’m demanding on myself. My education, career, finances, and keeping track of what I have for when I do finally get my own place. I don’t think I’m much of a mystery to a guy, but maybe I am. I think I keep it pretty simple when it comes to loving me. I mean: Love Me, Touch Me, Feed Me, and F*K me good! Is that too much?

Oh well I guess I’m so confused about what that is all about with my cousin and what she was saying about me, to me. I am just hopeful, praying for someone to love me.