I sat at church today realizing that I am not living the life I have passion for. I want to be a full time writer, I want to make stories people will read, get them in print, make it known that I am a published, and educated author.
I’m really hoping that my student loans will be forgiven come next month. I know exactly what I will do when that happens. I will quit my life, go back to school full time, and work on the side to make sure I am paying my bills, and saving money from my Pell Grants and stuff to make sure that I am putting 100% of myself in school.
I want to study Journalism, but I know I’ll be specific like Marketing, Communications, and more. I know I can do it, I have a major chunk of classes out of the way, but to get a full on Bachelors of Science degree in something I wish I would have obtained years ago to get it now would be a major accomplishment for myself.
I could get my Masters Degree right after, but definitely find a job. It would be a late start to my happiness, but I know I’d be happy with my life, my career, and what God will bring me.
Do you ever want to have a do-over? I often see how people can do it with their education and their lives, why can’t I? I’m not married, I don’t have any kids, and the man I know I’d be happy with for the rest of my life doesn’t want me like that, but I know he’d be supportive of me even if he wouldn’t think I’m totally bat sh!t crazy!!
What do you think? Would you do it if you could? Would you do a full on do-over if given the chance?