I’m often asked this question by certain people, mostly are men only because they are looking for someone who will cheat with them. I tell them it’s not worth it, they need to fix the issues with their wives, that is why they married them, if not then they need to figure something out and leave.
I’m not the kind of woman who will cheat with a man who is in a relationship, I can’t do it, I can’t function that way. I’ve been cheated on so many times it can break someone’s heart. To be honest, it sometimes breaks mine still. I hate thinking about it because to me that is his way of tell me I’m not enough for him.
I know some of that pain lingers inside of me. I’m strong when I need to be, but it’s something I’ve never been able to work through.
Why do men think they can convince a woman to cheat with them? What is the goal? What are they trying to prove? Even now thinking about it, there are two men who want me in their bed, apparently their wives don’t do anything for them. Last time I checked that was not my problem. I’m not in their marriage, and I’m not about to be the other woman.
Anyone who knows me, reads my blogs, know that I don’t consider myself to be beautiful, but I’m not dumb either! I know they want to see parts of me that they can’t see, I know they want to experience something that someone has had for a while, and yet they still flirt. I’m not ignorant by any means at all, but I just can’t do it.
Why is this bothering me so much? Why have these two other men come into my life, knowing there is no future at all, but still want to risk everything they have with their lives and marriages to just sleep with me? Don’t they see that I am not like all those other women out there who have no issues with cheating. Why can’t they bother them? Why do I have to feel like I’m guilty of something when I am not. I can’t imagine another man touching me. I’m not ready for that.
What should I do? Am I making a bigger deal of this than I should??