Funny thoughts

Letting you go….finally

You know that moment comes along in your heart and in your mind that it’s time to let go of someone who makes it evident that you are irrelevant to them.

There have been emotional steps that one has to walk through, so many ups and downs within myself with no major support shoulder to lean on from a lover. No strong man to be there for me.

I’m no longer looking for him in my mind or my dreams, yet in the deepest, darkest part of my heart I often hope that he would want me still. I know I’m damaged, I’m fully aware of that, never once have I denied it, yet knowing I don’t rank in his life makes it proof that my level of relevance deteriorated over time.

It would be so fantastic to be wanted, desired, or even thought of by him. Oh well guess it shows the truth of all I was.