Real Life · Relationships

Moving Forward

Ever struggle with this concept? Yeah, me too. I mean right now not at the moment. I’m at peace with my life. Yet, for some reason my mind can’t make the decision to even try to want to go out on a date with someone new. I honestly have no idea why, but for some reason my mind is stopping me.

I signed up for a month subscription with, so far I am so disappointed in the kind of guys on there, and the fact that they are all looking for one thing. I mean they say they are looking for the right woman, but to be honest they are looking for the right type of “super model” that does not exist in the Midwest. I am sure they are all nice guys, but in reality they are after one thing, “How many ‘desperate’ women can I sweet talk into sleeping with me?” not to stick them all in the same category, but unfortunately it seems to be like that.

I am stuck because my uncle who has been divorced for about 3 years is out there dating, he told me, “I don’t want to be alone. I want to be with someone who wants to be with me.” I struggle with that because I am the same way. I often wonder what it will take to get someone to change their mind about being alone? How do you get someone to understand that it isn’t healthy.

When I look at my life, there is nothing holding me back, yet there is and I am not sure what or why. There is hope, always hope that I’ll get to the point of someone wanting me, where being alone is an afterthought. Ever want that?

What is wrong with wanting to be with someone? Ever look back on some things, the little smiles, laughs, acceptance, gestures, and more and just crave that? I guess I feel it more than most.