Alone

I sometimes wonder if it’s easier to be alone than it is to be with someone? These thoughts have been going through my mind today. I’m feeling like, I love being with someone. A man I can talk to, touch anytime I want, kiss, and more. Yet, after talking to a few people tonight, it seems like I’m going to be alone forever.

I hate the thought of that. I mean when you are alone, you miss out on having communication, laughter, even arguments, with those arguments come the great angry make up sex…..really sex anytime, anywhere and anyplace. Doesn’t that sound better than living alone in your own little world?

Yeah I am sure you have kids, or will have kids, something, but eventually they grow up, or maybe you feel isolated when they are gone. No one wants to be like that, why would you?

Honestly it started breaking my heart more and more as I started thinking about what I’ve had to where I am now. I don’t want average anymore, I want something that is extraordinary! I’ve had it before and to was the best thing in my life! I want it again, I’m just praying that I can have it again.