Do you feel like saying that to someone or your life? I get that way. I’m actually getting to the point in my “relationship” life where I am saying Enough is Enough, I’m totally done with the idea of being in a relationship with someone. I know I’ve said this before, and he comes knocking back into my life, and I crumble. It is a total weakness, he is a total weakness, he knows it.
I found out that there are at least three men that workout at my part time job that are interested in me. I’m not really sure how I feel about that, but it is a little strange to see myself as someone being interested in me. I’m not ugly, but I’m not skinny, or super overweight either.
I feel a little lost with the idea of not having this man in my life, but at the same time I can’t have a life with the idea of being an after thought either, or maybe he will think of me, or maybe he will text me, maybe he’ll want me as much as I want him. Nothing like hanging onto a one sided relationship.
Knowing I’ve complained about this in the past makes me feel like I cry wolf constantly about him, yet I beat myself up mentally and emotionally because I can’t let go, put my foot down to stop or anything that gives me a back bone against him. I want someone to want me, who is willing to spend time with me. I know I have a busy life, working two jobs, but still manage to make time for him. I’m not looking for gifts, just his time. I want to be able to hold his hand whenever I feel like, wrap my arms around him, have his arms around me to just hold me. Lay next to him and be comfortable.
I am scared to start over. I now know what I deserve, and how I want to be treated, but at the same time I’ve gotten comfortable at times with him. What should I do? What would you do? It is always easier to say, “Get over it, start over with someone new. Someone who will appreciate you.”
Enough really is enough emotionally.
Thoughts and Views from Kansas 🌻 