How do you know when your over someone? Do you get this feeling inside of you that no longer aches? Do you feel empty or lighter? I know it’s different for everyone, but when you feel free from heartache it’s the best feeling in the world.
I now know that I’m FINALLY over my ex. I no longer ache to talk to him, joke with him on Facebook, or anything. I’m still polite to him no matter what. There is zero hatred, no resentment of any kind to him. He’s an amazing man with a great heart. Such potential to find his great love, but it takes time.
Me, on the other hand…..well I am a lost cause. I’m accepting that I’m single, and that I’m going to be alone for the rest of my life. I’ve realized this recently talking to someone, and really meditating about it as well. I truly believe it has a lot to do with my parents. They should have never started dating, got married or even had kids!! My father is such a ladies man, he just couldn’t stop. My mom, well she lets people walk all over her and tell her how to live her life, and then complain about it. I look at my siblings and I, and realize that none of us are in relationships, dating/committed/ or married. I think the three of us are paying some price from God because our parents should have never gotten together from the start. Nothing like it, I tell you.
For the first time in a very long time, the way my life is, can only go up. It can only be increased by God. I’m still praying for a job, but I’m taking everything one day at a time. I’m still planning to go back to school in the Spring, so it’s only a matter of time.
My heart and head actually feel lighter. I’m not weighed down by any means of a relationship with any man. I no longer have a need to worry about where I fit into anything, because I don’t. Sucks it took me a long time to see it, but I knew I’d get there eventually. I’m sure he’s thankful for me finally reaching this point too. No more me being around him, and all of that. No more taking up one side of the bed, or using his bathroom and drinking his coffee. Just out of his life period.
I know one day my life will come together, and when it does, I’m pretty sure that I’ll be the happiest I’ve ever been. Who knows if I’ll ever meet someone new. I’m not going to hold my breath for it. I’m just going to live my life for myself and move on.
How about you? How do you deal with getting over a broken heart?